Spring Break...

The most anticipated time of the year....

is here.

:)

what has it greeted with me so far?

this. 

instead of this.

(that was me last spring break)

icky, right?

oh well. welcome to Idaho!

spring will be here soon enough!

infact, there's only a FEW more weeks of school left.

& then i'm gonna be a junior!

I wanted to share with you some of my finest art work that i've been working on as of late:

hahaha. funny, right?

all my friends really do have crabs. 

we love our hermies. 

also.....

I am so incredibly blessed.

To have found this boy.

Michael. 

Is the most incredible boy i've ever met.

he has the best heart.

the sweetest spirit.

he cares about me, deeply,

as I care about him.

we've almost been together a month, 

so I figured it's safe to post this :)

we'll see what happens:)

haters.

I despise haters.
You know...the ones who sit around and talk about other people because they feel worthless.
especially & specifically...
the ones who don't have the guts to say it to my face.
TRUTHFULLY: GROW UP.
If you have a problem with me?
say it to my face.
don't go doing something completely immature-like
"blocking me on facebook" *BIG SCARY DEAL* .....and THEN talking nasty.
or FREAK out because of my past....even though they never truly gave me a chance to get to know me.
or start a rumor: because you feel insecure.
no. no. no. no.
if you're gonna talk about me? talk to me. that way, you won't end up looking like a big, stupid idiot in the end.
 I love how people decide to hate people...but never really know them anyways.
HONESTLY: 
the ones that matter? don't care.
the ones that don't care...don't matter.
so. this blog is for YOU. haters. reaching out to the few of you:
who have tried to make my life miserable the last few weeks.
karma will come around soon enough. & in the meantime...
I have this...

 and these guys:

so go ahead.
hate me.
you really don't matter to me.
I don't hate you--but I hate to see that you continue to make your life
miserable....(so freaking miserable...)
because you're so busy hating me.

love,
tonya

it hit me.

life.
GROWING UP.
it's hit me.
smack dab in the face.
You know how sometimes everything just wells up inside of you? Well.
I was sitting on the floor of my bathroom crying. feeling sorry for myself.
It just him me that i'm growing up.
I just realized that i'm halfway done with my college career.
I was supposed to be officially engaged this OCTOBER.
(If my ex hadn't completely shattered  my heart)
After this May, I will never be a teenager. Ever again. Weird, right?
some things: I will never get the chance to go back too.
these are a few of the memories I so desperately wish I could save.

                                               this was taken
                                               at my nieces graduation.
                                               she spent the night teaching jessica and me
                                               how to skate board.
                                               this weekend, was one of the most carefree,
                                                happy weekends.
                                               I would give anything to go back to this.

                                                   Kalee Beck and Davin Nebeker.
                                                   They made my senior year-the best.
                                                   Movie nights, random food runs...
                                                   I don't think the two of them will EVER understand.
                                                   How much I miss this.

                                                Ah. Yes. I'm sure you all knew this was coming.
                                                The unforgettable trio.
                                                 My two very best friends
                                                 in this entire universe.
                                                They both had my heart-
                                                which was BOUND to lead to problems.
                                                I think you'd have to truly know all of us to truly
                                                understand the bond we had.
                                                But, it's over.
                                                Things are shattered.
                                                Keith comes home this October,
                                                but I know he's not going to want
                                                anything
                                                to do with me.
                                                However, lost moments are rememberd in the heart.
                                               Always.

                                           Todd Wirkus. My very first "boyfriend."
                                           I loved him the first time I saw him.
                                           He's now married
                                           (to someone i'm not so fond of)
                                           But I hope he's happy.
                                           We were Todd & Copper.
                                           Best friends.
                                           His car got stolen with me one time...
                                           I can honestly say that i've
                                           never had so much fun with a boyfriend.

                                                    THE SUMMER OF BEING SEXY.
                                                    self explanitory :)

                                          Thanksgiving's with this girl.
                                          EVERY SINGLE YEAR we'd spend thanksgiving together.
                                          And when I say every single year.....
                                          I mean sixth grade till second year of college.
                                          She's still got my back.
                                          Even though she's married :)
                                          But I miss this. Desperately.

                                                 Dillon.
                                                 Some things, can never be fixed.
                                                 Strangely, i'm over this.
                                                 I'm not over the fact that I lost a friend.
                                                 My quote for this situation is:
                                                 "Never leave the person you love
                                                  for the person you like.
                                                  Because
                                                  the person you like,
                                                  will leave you for the person they love."
                                                  I was young.
                                                  Stupid.
                                                  But I learned a lot.
                                                  That doesn't change the fact that I messed up.
                                                  On a LOT of things.
                                                  But I miss my friend.
                                                  Not a day will ever go by,
                                                  that I wish we'd handled things differently.

                                           KENN AND LACY.
                                           My college girls.
                                           As a scared, timid freshman....
                                           you need girls like this.
                                           Lacy is now married.
                                           Kendall is moving to Washington.
                                           But we have had some EPIC times together.
                                           Late nights. Heart to hearts. Living together.
                                           These girls will always be so special to me.

Anyways. That's my soap box.
I've realized that I can't go back, no matter how hard I wish I could.
BUT
That is such inspiration for me to enjoy the things I have going on for me now.
Because I never know how long they're going to last.

and if you're wondering....I got up off the bathroom floor.


bathrooms are not for crying.
unless you stub your toe on the toilet. 


:)

I believe...

• My trials have made me a strong person.
• Love comes and goes, and someday it will last.
• Boys are complete opposites of women(:
• Family is always there.
• I will forever be a Daddy's girl.
• My mother will always be my hero.
• Sometimes burning bridges is a necessary thing.
• Classical music understands me, and I understand it.
• Piano is my first love, and will always be my first love.
• I will be okay. 
• the truth can sometimes hurt. 
• but
• it's better to be told the truth than lied too.

& sometimes...what looks like the end of the road, is the beginning of a beautiful new chapter.

Winter Update!

Christmas time is over. I must admit that my Christmas was fantastic! Something about being with my family, is so special. These are the cute snowmen that me and my mommy made together.....

we made 175 of them to be exact...and it was really fun :) she is so crafty. I love my mother! 

This Christmas I went to see the dancing light house with my friends. The house that hosted the lights went ALL out, and did a great job. I pretty much love Christmas lights, it's my favorite thing ever.

look how fantastic the house looks? It was synchronized to music and pretty much put us all in a trans. That's also the sunset on the way to see the lights...no editing was done to that picture. just plain Idaho beauty!

One of the best parts of my Holiday was having my cousins come from Hawaii. My cousin has two beautiful babies, one is a newborn, and one is two. Madison is the precious newborn, and Kayla is the talkative two year old. She is so entergetic, and loves me. It's girls like her that make me want children, NOW. 

here she is checking out my mom's village. Its a little winter wonderland for her :)

I love her. So much <3 

I need to point out a very important fact. I have never had a bunch of really close girlfriends I can count on. I've had a few that have stuck around, but they move, or most of them really come and go. It's been something that's been hard on me, but I think i've finally found a solution. Her name, Is Aimee Volmer. She is literally my other half. She makes me so happy, and we  do everything together!! We've been through the exact same relationships, and she understands me. I know it sounds like we're in a relationship, but haha we kid of are!! The bestfriend kind! She is so awesome.There is nothing left to say, besides the fact that she's honstely going to be my maid of honor when i get married in a few years..... :) oh, and I have REALLY relied so much on her the past four months. 

my new years was awesome. I had some friends get married in Rupert and got to travel there for their reception. It was beautiful, and I bawled all the way through it, of course. :) I got to spend time with my really good friend devin, and spent new years eve with his family watching movies like jurrassic park and war of the worlds...while making delicious smores and practicing my perfect picth (which really is perfect...not kidding. I even called his dad's electric toothbrush. Yeah, I felt pretty cool) :)

And...for the most exciting news. I have a boyfriend. I never thought I'd get over how incredibly crushed I was from my ex-fiance....but this boy right here has given me new hope. :) 

yes, thats skype.

his name is Cody Haley. 

we went to highschool together, and were bestfriends the whole way through.

ok--bestfriends meaning we would fight every day. 

but then we'd eat lunch together and make up. 

he's incredible.

words can't describe how happy he makes me....

AND.

he's flying me to texas to see him, next week :) 

yep. TEXAS.

88 degree weather.

I can't wait.

 he's awesome.

i'm so incredibly lucky.

we'll see what happens.....

& I'll keep you all posted.

<3 <3 

Big News Guys...

Okay, so yes. This is my SECOND blog in one day......but i'm so excited I can hardly contain myself.

:)

I MOVED :)

into theeeeeeeeeeeeeeee most amazing place.

ever.

wanna know what I love about it? (besides everything...)

• off campus location (no more pot smoking roomates for me)
• close to campus (as in I can see the music building from my porch. that's right. my porch :D )
• our kitchen has a stove, oven, and a dishwasher. dishwashers=blessed.
• my queen size bed. all to myself.
• my closet space. picture will explain...

cute, right?? my closet space is the best...and yes. we have christmas lights.

christmas, christmas, christmsas....

we are excited. there is even a little tree in our living room. oh yeah, by we, I mean....

again, cute. :) emily is a vocal major, and the best thing ever?? SHE CAN COOK! such good food. 

that's her dog esaw, who happens to look just like my dog, kisses! he only has one eye, but he's super sweet. a little full of gas at times...but hey, who can complain? 

ohh. 

I almost forgot. 

wanna know the BEST part about living above a coffee shop???? 

AGAIN....cute. :)

His name is Joe..

...more commonly known as Joseph the Latte Boy.

A song which I take great pride in singing to him. 

p.s. he's even cuter when he blushes ;)

Disclaimer: (that is hot chocolate in my cup, I promise..best hot chocolate EVER.)

bottom line....

I'm happy:)

come visit!! 

One gypsy princess jumping on the bed...

...........she fell off and bumped her...

 FOOT. 

It's a true story guys. Technically, I snapped a few tendons-but whatever. It still hurt like a mo fo. I bet you're all dying to know what happened, so here is my epic story. My roommate  Heather and I were watching the local news. There were some creepy abduction stories going on, so we both went to bed slightly paranoid. Around midnight right as i'm about to fall asleep, my fan decides to fall down. Perfect. It crashes into my window, making it sound like someone was literally trying to bust in and kill me. I launched out of my bed, and landed wrong. When I landed...I knew I was screwed. The next morning, I tried to get out of bed and walk. Really, really, really bad idea. So I hopped, yes, literally hopped to the doctor and got my meds, AND my spiffy little boot :) I'm doing much better now, so never fear. 

Downside to snapping my tendons.... :(

Plus side to snapping my tendons.... :)

disclaimer: the little boy kept staring at me like I was some crazy lady. I truthfully wasn't. Heather had to slow down to walk with me...but I think the look on his face is priceless.

That's all for now :)