This is actually the the THRID blog that i've stared...hoping, wishing and praying that this time it will work out!! I have actually had people tell me that I need to start blogging again, so, my dear dedicated stalkers, here you are! Haha.
Things have changed so much in my life. Worst summer of my LIFE that is for sure! So many terrible things happened, but I have become such a strong person. I've burned some bridges, and suprisingly, I don't regret any of it. I feel like sometimes turning over a new leaf and making new friends and new connections is the best way to go about your life! Life lessons have poured themselves out all over me, quickly speeding up my maturity process. I have definatly learned what I look for in best friends, and also what to look for in a boyfriend... (and more importantly, HIS FAMILY.) I deserve the best of the best. I don't deserve to be lied to, hurt, kicked around, or treated like shit. I'm walking away from all of that, and it feels so good. Guess what? I'm the priority :)
I am back at college, and am having the time of my life. My roomates are incredible, the food is wayy better this year, and the music is tough! I made chamber choir, which is the most advanced choir here at ISU. I started crying when I found out I made it, because I know that this music is going to heal me. Music heals me. I don't know how else to put it other than that. My piano is my best friend, and my singing heals my heart. I also have my friends that actually, truly care about me by my side. How do you know you have a real friend? Yeah. They never leave you.
My testimony of the gospel has also increased in this time of distress. With blessings and fasting, I have actually come to feel the promptings of the spirit. The lord has a plan. I already am married with an amazing husband....it just hasn't happend yet. I also came to this amazing conclusion...
sometimes, things have to completely fall apart before they fall together.
p.s. Justin, Roomies and Lindsay...thanks for being my lifesavers these last few weeks. Muah.